God sees you!

Wow I have never in my life felt more seen by God than right now. 

This past week has been on of the hardest weeks yet. Yes I know, y’all would have thought from my blogs that the first week was the hardest. Let me tell you, being in a foreign country surrounded by a bunch of people you have only known for 2 months who have been blasting Christmas music for the past, well I don’t know but to long, without any of my family or the people I have grown up with and known all my life was not my idea of a fun thanksgiving. 

I kept praying over and over that God would let me not be depressed, to help me make the most of this time because this is the last time I will ever been in gorgeous Guatemala for thanksgiving. Well folks, sometimes God waits to answer your prayers until you make the first move. 

There is so much more that has happened to bring all this about but because I know you have things to do today. I’ll give you the short version. 

We have been in Guatemala for about 3 weeks now and I could count on one hand how many times we have been able to see the stars because it’s been so cloudy, and if you know me, you know one of the things I was most excited about was seeing the stars in other countries. Wednesday night I went out to look at the stars, the few that were actually showing that night, and as I was laying there the clouds started to cover up the stars even more. I felt God telling me that that has been me. There is so much beauty and so much depth behind the clouds, but you can’t let others and the enemy cloud that over. 

God created you to shine your light in the darkness, but you can only shine if you first seek his face and don’t allow the enemy to cover that up. 

This morning I woke up and was still not very thrilled about being where my feet are because my whole Dad’s side of the family is getting together today. I went outside to do my devotions, I journaled first like I always do and then opened my bible to Genesis where I have been reading. As I stared at the pages nothing seemed even remotely interesting to read right then, but I didn’t know where else to go. So, I started flipping through looking at all the pictures and notes that people have written me that are in my bible. And then because apparently I cry all the time now, I started crying again. Eventually I got to a place in Psalms where someone had wrote me a note and I began to read chapter 34. It talks so much about how God sees you and He hears your cry. 

God just continually blows my mind on how He literally created the universe and for some reason He wants a personal relationship with me. He, who made all things, hears me. But He doesn’t just hear me he actually meets me where I’m at and at the sweetest times. 

So don’t forget to be thankful for how amazing of a God you have! 

Love y’all and hope y’all have a great rest of the day.